Lost to the world.

Remember when we were lost to the world? We were amazing. Not only could we say for sure that we were better then the world and closer to God, but we began to believe ourselves to be unrivaled in any spiritual respect. We were amazing. Spiritual insights flowed from our mind. We knew what gave us the best spritual high and how to consistently get it. What happened to those days? Last thing i remembered was that we should have been the envy of everyone else, reaching a platau that no one else had ever known about. Then, i guess, we kind of drifted apart. I'm not quite sure how, or really why, but without you, i couldn't maintain the level that i was use to. I was falling, but i was confident that i would not hit the bottem. I was wrong. It wasn't like the bottem i hit before i knew Christ, more of a lower level, of a child state, the place that i had forgotten existed, that i never though i would return to. But i was back, and you were gone. I was again at square one, and i didn't really care. God knew me, he would move me out of my lower level and elevate me back to him, i mean, after all, he must have been enjoying his creation being so close to him. He never rescued me. I stayed where i was, unmoving, stuck at a child like state, barely able to remember and comprehend the level that i use to be at. But before my eyes, my view of the world changed. I made new friends, people that it ends up don't know Christ, people that just a short time ago thought that i was stuck up and had something that they didn't have and wouldn't share it with them. That's when i figured it out, when someone said it to me: "Welcome to the world." The place that we though that we were better then never saw us. God then opened up my eyes and showed me that we were not doing what he wanted, we were doing what we wanted. We were lost to the world, but they welcomed us back when we were broken, because that's what they are. So i'm starting over. I'm not going to take the time to heal my wounds, God will deal with that. All i need to do is show the world who the healer is, and not be lost to the world, but lost in the world.



Note: This is an archived website. I built this between 2000 and 2004 and in some small way I feel that it has defined how I view my online presence. Although it's been years since I've updated, I have decided to keep it in its original glory and preserve it instead of replacing it with a blank page. Enjoy this glimpse into my younger self.